It's probably been a looooong looooooooooong time...
8th Year in Shell, how time flies. But all through these 8 years wasn't an easy journey for me. Especially now. I am fully aware that my performance for the past 1.5 years hasn't been on par as compared to what i have put in the previous years. I only have myself to blame for that. Last year, when everything was a mess, i was constantly making stupid mistakes and not doing this and that. And this year, I am constantly thinking of how to solve my problems. And because of this stupidity of being unable to balance work and personal life, I won't be offered to sit for my promotional test. *SIGH*
Sometimes i wonder what is it with some people, to pick on every single fault of others but theirs. Like clearly almost everyone is unhappy with this fella but voicing out will not change anything. I guess that's the problem: because every seniors tell us to ignore the issue and always assume that the superiors will not take action against them, this mentality seriously have got to go man.
But on the other note, how do we know that the superiors aren't taking any action?
For all i know, and because i am a mature immature 28 year old who have been in the same workplace for 8 years, if i know i did something wrong, i'll redeem myself and strive to be better than the person i was yesterday. Some people ... i really don't know lah and it frustrates me that NOOOOOOO they are not wrong, others are always wrong.
And the best part? these people have no guts to approach the person who is in the "wrong". must go one big round and complain and bitch IN FRONT of the guilty party in dialect.
Beb, kau dah gila eh?
Seriously ... because i KNOW this person likes to complain a whole damn lot, i tried to show her that SHE DO MAKE MISTAKES TOO. but nooo, each time must give 1001 reasons trying to explain herself. oh okay, you can explain yourself, but did you even give others a chance to explain themselves on why they missed this or that before going straight to superiors to make a complain? seriously, the lab won't explode or the instruments won't malfunction over a single vial not cleared, over wastes not emptied, or glasswares not cleared from the oven/drying rack/washing machine. nor the lab will cease to function when there are samples awaiting to be sent out. how petty can you be? seriously? if your point is to show the boss that you are efficient in your work and a so called "siao on" worker, WHY ARE YOU NOT EVEN THE SENIOR-EST OF ALL THE SENIORS? you good mah? complain all got medal? got extra pay? got extra performance bonus? no?
i'm just counting my days to get out of this shit place. yea the pay is good only after 5 years but it is physically, mentally and emotionally draining. i have enough of my personal problems to tend to and i don't need this extra pressure from trying to constantly watch my own back. but i reckon with the upcoming house and the shit load of debt i have to clear, i can't throw in the towel just yet.
when it comes to debts, people might assume that it's from my wedding expenses. nope. my wedding expenses have been kindly paid off by my father. i am so thankful for that because otherwise i won't know how i'll survive. it doesn't really pay to be kind and lend people your money. because when times like these comes and you have a whole load of burden on your shoulder, you can only rely on yourself to settle the loan amount. *sighs*
marriage life has been wonderful. i keep telling myself how blessed i am to have such a husband and how stupid i was last year. memories hurt me alot but it makes me grateful of what i have right now. surely we are not the best of ourselves right now but it takes time to improve and each day is a learning point for us. business is slowly picking up, i have yet to make my first thousand from sales each month though but i wouldn't complain much because i still have my full time job commitment to attend to every 4 days. my dearest husband is also picking up the skills to make his own decals and do his own editting so i have pretty much a helping hand right now. i even have a team of resellers now! maybe one day we'll make it further than what we have now, and maybe one day we'll look back and feel lucky we decided to take this step.
PaperkutzSG is almost 2.5 years old now, how time flies! we're still expanding as we speak, but when it comes to a brick and mortar, i am reluctant to invest on one even in the near future. maybe one day when i decide to throw in the letter, i'll just settle for a home based business.
We plan, but only Allah knows what is in store for us.
May everything go smooth for us...
and may i constantly have this strength to keep me going.
8th Year in Shell, how time flies. But all through these 8 years wasn't an easy journey for me. Especially now. I am fully aware that my performance for the past 1.5 years hasn't been on par as compared to what i have put in the previous years. I only have myself to blame for that. Last year, when everything was a mess, i was constantly making stupid mistakes and not doing this and that. And this year, I am constantly thinking of how to solve my problems. And because of this stupidity of being unable to balance work and personal life, I won't be offered to sit for my promotional test. *SIGH*
Sometimes i wonder what is it with some people, to pick on every single fault of others but theirs. Like clearly almost everyone is unhappy with this fella but voicing out will not change anything. I guess that's the problem: because every seniors tell us to ignore the issue and always assume that the superiors will not take action against them, this mentality seriously have got to go man.
But on the other note, how do we know that the superiors aren't taking any action?
For all i know, and because i am a mature immature 28 year old who have been in the same workplace for 8 years, if i know i did something wrong, i'll redeem myself and strive to be better than the person i was yesterday. Some people ... i really don't know lah and it frustrates me that NOOOOOOO they are not wrong, others are always wrong.
And the best part? these people have no guts to approach the person who is in the "wrong". must go one big round and complain and bitch IN FRONT of the guilty party in dialect.
Beb, kau dah gila eh?
Seriously ... because i KNOW this person likes to complain a whole damn lot, i tried to show her that SHE DO MAKE MISTAKES TOO. but nooo, each time must give 1001 reasons trying to explain herself. oh okay, you can explain yourself, but did you even give others a chance to explain themselves on why they missed this or that before going straight to superiors to make a complain? seriously, the lab won't explode or the instruments won't malfunction over a single vial not cleared, over wastes not emptied, or glasswares not cleared from the oven/drying rack/washing machine. nor the lab will cease to function when there are samples awaiting to be sent out. how petty can you be? seriously? if your point is to show the boss that you are efficient in your work and a so called "siao on" worker, WHY ARE YOU NOT EVEN THE SENIOR-EST OF ALL THE SENIORS? you good mah? complain all got medal? got extra pay? got extra performance bonus? no?
i'm just counting my days to get out of this shit place. yea the pay is good only after 5 years but it is physically, mentally and emotionally draining. i have enough of my personal problems to tend to and i don't need this extra pressure from trying to constantly watch my own back. but i reckon with the upcoming house and the shit load of debt i have to clear, i can't throw in the towel just yet.
when it comes to debts, people might assume that it's from my wedding expenses. nope. my wedding expenses have been kindly paid off by my father. i am so thankful for that because otherwise i won't know how i'll survive. it doesn't really pay to be kind and lend people your money. because when times like these comes and you have a whole load of burden on your shoulder, you can only rely on yourself to settle the loan amount. *sighs*
marriage life has been wonderful. i keep telling myself how blessed i am to have such a husband and how stupid i was last year. memories hurt me alot but it makes me grateful of what i have right now. surely we are not the best of ourselves right now but it takes time to improve and each day is a learning point for us. business is slowly picking up, i have yet to make my first thousand from sales each month though but i wouldn't complain much because i still have my full time job commitment to attend to every 4 days. my dearest husband is also picking up the skills to make his own decals and do his own editting so i have pretty much a helping hand right now. i even have a team of resellers now! maybe one day we'll make it further than what we have now, and maybe one day we'll look back and feel lucky we decided to take this step.
PaperkutzSG is almost 2.5 years old now, how time flies! we're still expanding as we speak, but when it comes to a brick and mortar, i am reluctant to invest on one even in the near future. maybe one day when i decide to throw in the letter, i'll just settle for a home based business.
We plan, but only Allah knows what is in store for us.
May everything go smooth for us...
and may i constantly have this strength to keep me going.
