Alot has happened of late. Argued too much, cried too much. But all is well now, alhamdulillah. Le fiancé got into a not-so-minor accident last month, and it kinda woke us up quite a fair bit. Thankful (but not so thankful) that he managed to escape with several patches of abrasions and deep wounds, and is all well on the road to recovery.
Been keeping myself quiet of late. Avoiding people who are toxic to my emotional health. Went to see the doctor about my sleeping problem, and how my mood is always affecting F most times. I should have gone to the doctor earlier and not let things dragged. Because I believed that I could handle the problems on my own when in actual fact I needed that extra help.
Round two of anti-depressants and hello to more counselling sessions. I DREAD COUNSELLING SESSIONS PLEASE. Because I'm not someone who verbally expresses herself easily, unless I'm very angry and you drive me up against the wall. I shall not elaborate on this now. I shall not even explain to people because well, most of them will only understand up to their own level of understanding. Okay does this even make sense? An example would be like ... "sure or not you depressed? But you look okay le..." heh. You don't have to ground yourself in your room just to be depressed okay. Some people just hide it better than others.
Anywayyyyy ...
I'm down to 10 months to the big day. People have been asking about my wedding preparations and I will always say .... I HAVEN'T DONE ANYTHING YET. Yes, not a single preparation, or recce on the deco or which vendors i want! And I am not even in bridezilla mode. And I'm still cool with things, because I'm just weird like that. hehehe
My parents are more excited about the wedding than me. Excuse me, I nak kahwin ke you all yang nak kahwin eh? Please eh, stop it ehh! Initially wanted to just hold a small 500pax wedding because I don't have much relatives but nooo. Ayah says he wants to invite the whole Bukomites population whom he knows. Please tell me it's the WHOLE bukom eh not just his PU to justify for 1000pax invitations.
We went over to Mawarprada Wedding Gallery to (finally) place a deposit and block the dates. Glad that our slot is still available because November is fully packed! Now I hope that I can still find vendors to fill in the services that isn't included in Mawarprada's package.
Why Mawarprada?
1st - It HAD been the vendor I was eyeing for ever since I was still with the ex. Loved their deco. Though I know other vendors prolly can do better. BUT I STILL LOVED THEM. Thanks to sara for intro-ing MWG MANY YEARS BACK i don't remember when but i think back in 2011? 2012?
2nd - F is somehow related to Mawarprada. Sooooooo, it's gonna be easier to liaise lah kan!
Initially I was against the idea of F's mom wanting to engage their own relative to handle his wedding event. Because from "past experiences", sedara selalu makan sedara. Before wedding say this price, then during wedding step "got shortage, tak cukup ni tak cukup tu" then after wedding need to top up several thousand more. Eh you think money can magically drop from the sky?
But when I found out that F's relatives is the boss of Mawarprada, I WAS ELATED I TELL YOU. F obviously had no idea of Mawarprada or it's existence (biasa lah typical guys mana nak take note of these things kan), and I told F, OKAY GO! BOLEH! CAN ENGAGE YOUR RELATIVE!
I will blog more about the vendors that I had met soon (if i tak malas). Work is going to be a bitch soon for my shift because I have to cover for my colleague who's going for an operation. And work is quite a bitch now because I have to train my team mate, not that I do NOT want to train her but .... well, no comments lah kan.
Anyway me & F had accomplished our 2015 goals. Belanja satu gambar je ok?
ok good night.
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