It's not over until it's over

I thought the engagement is already a done deal. But no. Further commotion ensued based on people's judgements and opinions.

In the first place, I did NOT ask for anyone to prepare food or bring this or that. One aunt cook one type of dish eh? I SPECIFICALLY SAID that i'll fork out money to order in food. But no. People thought that i'm giving my guests Nasi Bungkus to eat! eh hello! got such thing called catering kan?! Less hassle less cleaning of ceramic wares after the event is over. BUT NOOOOOOOO need to cook need to make kuih need to make this need to make that. At the end of the day, I GET THE BLAME?! For being lazy? For not helping out clean the house?

Like hello? Do i NOT need to rush to work afterwards? It was bad enough I had to wait more than 30 minutes for a friggin taxi. And i get the blame for not discussing with my parents about the food. wah! blood boiling already. When in first place i already reiterated my intention to just cater food, the mother insisted NO NEED LAH MASAK YANG SIMPLE2 AJE TAKPE NANTI IBU PEGI PASAR BELI BARANG blablablablabla.

Second thing, people were slamming me for scolding my niece & nephew. It's like, "kau dah tahu budak tu memang suka kepo2 masok bilik orang kenapa kau marah2 budak tu?" BLOOD BOILING again. Okay I know I haven't have any children of my own yet so i don't understand what it's like to deal with kids. But I do babysit my little cousin waaay back then okay? He's a naughty boy TETAPI dengar kata. I realized that he doesn't listen when we raise our voices on him but instead will do his best to behave when we talk to him nicely.

Ok picture this. I don't engage a MUA to do my make up. I only had my two cousins to help me. And this little mak nenek keep bugging me to ask to see my make up stash. And keep bugging for this and that. You're getting engaged. You're not really an expert in makeup. As much as you try to keep your cool, you will eventually lose your patience. When you've already clearly said that mak nenek cannot play laptop, only to find mak nenek dengan muke sardine amek macbook aku macam tu harta mak dia and play, tak trip? sabaaar je kan. sabaaar je. hari aku niee, tak bagus jadi she-hulk (inside joke). if you know me and my temper, and if you know what was really happening, you would know that i have been patient. But thing is, you don't even know me, and you go on passing such remarks?

And whilst in my parents room when fai's family already came over, this mak nenek just cannot stop talking. Even when i nicely ask her to keep quiet nanti boleh continue bobal k bibik nak dengar what they talking outside. Noooooooo must fight back. Then i snarkly question her if she seriously cannot keep her mouth shut in school when the teacher is talking and she boasted that she's the monitor in her class. ironic. cannot keep mouth shut still can become monitor? aku diam je. budak kecik kan, takkan nak bobal kurang ajar depan dia. and there's one moment they were playing around the bed and the bedsheet slide off and the cake NEARLY FELL OFF THE BED. PANIC ATTACK! who won't panic and shout you tell me??!

I don't understand why my extended family members just can't adopt the "live and let live" mentality. nooo. must say this must say that. must compare this must compare that. the event dah over kan, sudah lah.

I wonder if other people's engagement went smoothly and ended on a happy, seriously happy note. no after event drama or scuffle.

makes me think twice on getting a SINGLE family member involved in my wedding preparations. Anyone think it's possible?

Alah. bukan nye mintak sponsor pon. Insyallah if everything goes as planned i'll be able to raise the funds by end of the year.

Your's Truly is engaged!

Alhamdullillah everything is all settled. The lady who put the ring on me is the veteran lady Sanisah Huri! Yeapp, she's Fai's aunt. Was very nervous and honestly, I was struggling to put my make up on because I usually just put on powder, draw on my eyebrows then I'm good to go! No lippies no blushers no contouring all that crap. Had an annoying niece bugging and getting in my way when i was getting ready i was soooo struggling to keep my cool and she had to trip my wire right before Fai's side reached my place. And to my surprise, Fai's side came with gifts! Ah ni la, everything also want to keep a secret right. From simple become like this. Didn't manage to eat much after that.

Mama gave me this kek gula hangus as a gift for me. I SPECIFICALLY SAID I WANTED THAT ALL FOR MYSELF BUT NOOOOOOOO MY AUNT HAVE TO CUT AND DISTRIBUTE TO EVERYONE ELSE AND SET A SMALL PORTION FOR ME. I WAS FUCKING TAMPING I TELL YOU. dah lah susah nak cari! nak buat pon leceh! sukasuka aje! Only managed to eat abit of the kek gula hangus, ONE CUPCAKE and not even a bite of the cake sey! ANGRY YOU KNOW.

Whatever la. Changed and set off to work. Didn't even remove the make up on my face. My house was literally like a fish market. Can't even move around freely. And I overheard a particular aunt went like "eeeehhh keje important!" macam aku nak menjawab je kan, yang dia tu tak bayar gaji aku. And I don't really take MC for fun nowadays. besides it's unfair for my other teammates as well since it's the CNY period. Usually if i had a family event going on I'll just attend for the sake of attending then leave for work. I get questioned for always being at work but what can i do? This is the life of a shift worker. I only have weekends off on ALTERNATE MONTHS and most times if i have a weekend off, I'll get called back to work to cover people on leave or on MC.

I can't stand these kind of people seriously. Like the fuck do i owe you a friggin' living?

Some people should really learn to mind their own business. And when giving advices to people, please make sure your hands are clean of any dirt.

Whatever it is, the event went as planned and next on line is my big day. WHEEEE~

Because.. chaos

As much as i wanted the engagement to be a small and SIMPLE event, i need to emphasize on the word SIMPLE. I don't mind putting on extra make up and dress up extra nice for the engagement, but I guess my parents and relatives are much more excited about the engagement than me.

The initial plan was to just order catering food for everyone, since I'll be heading to work immediately after the event finish, and i will definitely get remarks such as "MC sudah" or "asal kene keje? asal tak amek cuti?"

BUT NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO must cook must ask aunty A do this ask aunty B do that ask aunty C bring this bring that.

Another thing that made me pissed of is that, me and Fai agreed not to have any gift exchange but NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO must get this must get that. And best part, "DON'T TELL FAI." ah yelah, madang everything also want to keep a secret. hah~

And when I flare up and say that all this isn't necessary, what do i get? People say that i am UNGRATEFUL and NOT THANKFUL for the efforts people WILLING to put in for my second engagement since the first one was a total flop.

Look man, i don't even fucking care? It's just an engagement anyway. Not a biggie to me. Don't understand the commotion these people have to create.

Tough luck being a malay. Culture this culture that. Ah culture lah sangat. Menyusahkan.

The day he said he's gonna get me a ring

Wazaah!

in my previous post i mentioned about no longer being someone's girlfriend in the near future, but i really meant i'm going to get married! The boy and i didn't plan on getting engaged mainly because we didn't want to spend alot of money to get engaged. Besides, i don't wear rings anyway.

But tadaaa! Fai suddenly jio-ed me to go "look for my ring". Previously we did went to look around for a ring but there were no intentions to buy one, just scouting and looking at rings, which majority doesn't really appeal me lah.

Yeah, am quite a tomboy and most things ladylike don't really please my tastes.

Maybe it's just me or are the staffs at Meyson much more hospitable and friendly as compared to other jewellery shops? The ring i got for my previous engagement was also bought from Meyson and i remembered getting the same treatment from the staffs even though it's from a different outlet.

The salesperson took out all sorts of rings but none, i repeat NONE appeals me. White gold, rose gold, gold, NONEEEEE. i was laughing the whole time idky i was just excited shy idk what i was feeling but it's just that feeling like you have butterflies in your stomach because you're taking another step forward with your partner i just can't.

And then the lady took out one cute tiny ring. Mana punya kecik lah kan tangan aku. I immediately liked it because it's in d shape of a flower! Not something most women probably want for their engagement because i'm not someone who loves blingbling protruding diamonds and all. But they have to send it to the workshop because my finger is a size 10! Have to wait for a few days to collect the ring.

Just like that, zue is a happy girl. Fai is excited as well.

Though to be honest, i didn't want all this for now. Because i don't want to put pressure on him, especially now that he is struggling with his finance... all because of his bike.

So please dear yuna, shan & aky, stop making problems for us now can?

and yes, we name our bikes. Shan and Aky is mine whereas Yuna is fai's.

Because we are taking baby steps ...

It dawned on me lately that i still have the past stashed somewhere in the cyber world. Slowly recovering all the passwords of all the social media sites i used to have back then, and deleting everything with *hashtagzuedengansidiertu* . I hate mentioning his name nowadays, FYI.

I'll no longer be someone's girlfriend sometime in the near future, and I am definitely looking forward to it, albeit feeling all nervous and shit. Hopefully this won't start to be a kakak-kakak kahwin blog (hehehe) but i'll try to update about everything or anything I can (when i have time), even though my life's pretty mundane to be truthfully honest.

All work and no play makes Jill a boring soul.

And I am definitely looking forward to bali! 37 more days to our first trip together! Why bali again? because going Bali for 4 days isn't enough! especially when one day is gone due to flight delays!